Fear of abandonment

You chose to love me
And I’m thankful that you did
But what if you won’t tomorrow

I know I need to have faith
But what if you woke up
With feelings for some other
Or found out that you
Actually don’t like my smile

What if I become boring
Or gain three sizes
What if I become a bad mother
Or my anxiety will steal away my joy

Maybe that’s why I’ve always longed to be married
But will I trust your promise then?